Top 500 Kiss fm

001 Led Zeppelin – Stairway to Heaven
002 Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody
003 Metallica – One
004 Black Sabbath – Paranoid
005 The Who – Baba o’ Riley
006 The Beatles – Help!
007 Iron Maiden – The Number of the Beast
008 Deep Purple – Smoke on the Water
009 The Beatles – Hey Jude
010 Led Zeppelin – Rock and Roll
011 The Eagles – Hotel California
012 The Rolling Stones – (I Can’t Get No) Satisfaction
013 Creedence Clearwater Revival – Have You Ever Seen the Rain?
014 Led Zeppelin – Kashmir
015 The Jimi Hendrix Experience – Foxy Lady
016 AC/DC – T.N.T.
017 Led Zeppelin – Immigrant Song
018 The Doors – Light My Fire
019 Pink Floyd – Happiest Days… + Another Brick in the Wall
020 Guns N’ Roses – Sweet Child o’ Mine
021 Bob Dylan – Hurricane
022 The Doors – Love Me Two Times
023 Jethro Tull – Aqualung
024 Peter Frampton – Breaking All the Rules
025 Aerosmith – Dream On
026 Iron Maiden – Fear of the Dark
027 The Beatles – Twist and Shout
028 AC/DC – Back in Black
029 Eric Clapton – Cocaine
030 Queen – We Will Rock You
031 Alice Cooper – No More Mr. Nice Guy
032 Van Halen – Can’t Stop Lovin’ You
033 Rush – Tom Sawyer
034 Kiss – Detroit Rock City
035 The Doors – L.A. Woman
036 The Black Crowes – Remedy
037 Kiss – Rock and Roll All Nite
038 Pink Floyd – Money
039 Metallica – Enter Sandman
040 The Rolling Stones – Like a Rolling Stone
041 Led Zeppelin – Over the Hills and Far Away
042 U2 – Sunday Bloody Sunday
043 AC/DC – Highway to Hell
044 Steppenwolf – Born to Be Wild
045 Queen – We Are the Champions
046 Iron Maiden – Wasted Years
047 The Who – Who Are You
048 Led Zeppelin – Black Dog
049 Kiss – Strutter
050 The Beatles – Yesterday
051 Black Sabbath – Iron Man
052 Metallica – The Unforgiven
053 The Rolling Stones – Let’s Spend the Night Together
054 The Jimi Hendrix Experience – Purple Haze
055 Black Sabbath – Sabbath Bloody Sabbath
056 Pixies – Here Comes Your Man
057 AC/DC – Hells Bells
058 Lynyrd Skynyrd – Simple Man
059 Black Sabbath – Heaven and Hell
060 Queen – Somebody to Love
061 Guns N’ Roses – Welcome to the Jungle
062 David Bowie – Starman
063 Bob Dylan – Like a Rolling Stone
064 Judas Priest – Breaking the Law
065 Iron Maiden – Wasting Love
066 Ozzy Osbourne – Shot in the Dark
067 Deep Purple – Perfect Strangers
068 Pink Floyd – Time
069 Lynyrd Skynyrd – Sweet Home Alabama
070 The Rolling Stones – Start Me Up
071 AC/DC – Moneytalks
072 The Doors – Gloria
073 Deep Purple – Hush
074 Black Sabbath – War Pigs
075 Led Zeppelin – Whole Lotta Love
076 Queen – Bicycle Race
077 The Who – Substitute
078 The Jimi Hendrix Experience – Hey Joe
079 The Beatles – Revolution
080 Genesis – Mama
081 Guns N’ Roses – November Rain
082 Eric Clapton – I Shot the Sheriff
083 Lynyrd Skynyrd – That Smell
084 Journey – Don’t Stop Believin’
085 Elvis Presley – Don’t Be Cruel
086 The Who – Pinball Wizard
087 Led Zeppelin – Good Times Bad Times
088 Black Sabbath – The Wizard
089 Dio – Rainbow in the Dark
090 Creedence Clearwater Revival – Who’ll Stop the Rain
091 Ozzy Osbourne – No More Tears
092 Janis Joplin – Mercedes Benz
093 Aerosmith – Walk This Way
094 The Clash – Rock the Casbah
095 Elvis Presley – Tutti Frutti
096 Ramones – Pet Sematary
097 The Doobie Brothers – Long Train Runnin’
098 Deep Purple – Space Truckin’
099 John Lennon – Imagine
100 The Cult – Edie (Ciao Baby)
101 Queen and David Bowie – Under Pressure
102 The Rolling Stones – Brown Sugar
103 Foo Fighters – My Hero
104 AC/DC – Jailbreak
105 The Beatles – All You Need Is Love
106 Queen – I Want to Break Free
107 Led Zeppelin – D’yer Mak’er
108 The Rolling Stones – She’s So Cold
109 The Doors – Roadhouse Blues
110 Focus – Hocus Pocus
111 The Who – You Better You Bet
112 Alice Cooper – Hey Stoopid
113 David Bowie – The Man Who Sold the World
114 Queen – I Want It All
115 Black Sabbath – N.I.B.
116 Guns N’ Roses – Used to Love Her
117 The Doors – Hello, I Love You
118 The Rolling Stones – Gimme Shelter
119 Ramones – Do You Wanna Dance
120 The Beatles – Eleanor Rigby
121 Joe Cocker – Unchain My Heart
122 Rush – The Spirit of Radio
123 Queen – Another One Bites the Dust
124 Pearl Jam – Alive
125 The Cult – Lil’ Devil
126 Elvis Presley – Blue Suede Shoes
127 Nirvana – Smells Like Teen Spirit
128 Ramones – Poison Heart
129 Joy Division – Love Will Tear Us Apart
130 The Beatles – A Hard Day’s Night
131 Bon Jovi – Livin’ on a Prayer
132 The Who – My Generation
133 The Beatles – All My Loving
134 The Rolling Stones – Jumpin’ Jack Flash
135 Survivor – Eye of the Tiger
136 Lynyrd Skynyrd – Free Bird
137 Whitesnake – Love Ain’t No Stranger
138 The Smiths – This Charming Man
139 Ramones – Blitzkrieg Bop
140 Nirvana – Come As You Are
141 U2 – New Year’s Day
142 Van Halen – Ain’t Talkin’ ‘Bout Love
143 Yes – Owner of a Lonely Heart
144 Peter Frampton – Baby, I Love Your Way (Live)
145 Metallica – Nothing Else Matters
146 Kiss – I Love it Loud
147 Nirvana – In Bloom
148 AC/DC – You Shook Me All Night Long
149 America – Sister Golden Hair
150 The Beatles – Love Me Do
151 David Bowie – Sound and Vision
152 Led Zeppelin – Dancing Days
153 The Rolling Stones – Emotional Rescue
154 The Doors – Riders on the Storm
155 The Beatles – Can’t Buy Me Love
156 Guns N’ Roses – You Could Be Mine
157 The Guess Who – American Woman
158 Whitesnake – Here I Go Again
159 Aerosmith – I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing
160 Rush – Xanadu
161 David Bowie – Rebel Rebel
162 Peter Frampton – While My Guitar Gently Weeps
163 Dire Straits – Sultans of Swing (Live)
164 Red Hot Chili Peppers – Californication
165 Rush – Freewill
166 Bruce Springsteen – Because the Night (Live)
167 Pearl Jam – Jeremy
168 Ramones – We Want the Airwaves
169 Kiss – I Was Made for Lovin’ You
170 Aerosmith – Amazing
171 Pink Floyd – High Hopes
172 The Rolling Stones – Miss You
173 Elvis Presley – A Little Less Conversation
174 Nirvana – Lithium
175 David Bowie – Heroes
176 Guns N’ Roses – Patience
177 Led Zeppelin – All My Love
178 Midnight Oil – My Country
179 Creedence Clearwater Revival – I Heard it Through the Grapevine
180 Pearl Jam – Soldier of Love
181 U2 – One
182 Elvis Presley – Blue Suede Shoes
183 Derek and the Dominos – Layla
184 Nazareth – Hair of the Dog
185 The Beatles – Come Together
186 The Who – Behind Blue Eyes
187 The Doors – Touch Me
188 ZZ Top – Sharp Dressed Man
189 Alice Cooper – School’s Out
190 James Brown – I Got You (I Feel Good)
191 Faith No More – Epic
192 Frank Zappa – Bobby Brown (Goes Down)
193 Rush – Time Stand Still
194 Deep Purple – Black Night
195 UFO – Doctor Doctor
196 Whitesnake – Fool for Your Loving
197 Bad Religion – American Jesus
198 Midnight Oil – Beds Are Burning
199 Red Hot Chili Peppers – Give it Away
200 Pink Floyd – Wish You Were Here
201 Van Halen – Jump
202 Eric Clapton – I Can’t Stand It
203 Joe Cocker – You Can Leave Your Hat On
204 Pink Floyd – Hey You
205 Creedence Clearwater Revival – Proud Mary
206 The Who – I Can See for Miles
207 Iron Maiden – Reach Out
208 Aerosmith – Janie’s Got a Gun
209 Bon Jovi – It’s My Life
210 David Bowie – Let’s Dance
211 The Cure – The Caterpillar
212 Pearl Jam – Black
213 Kansas – Carry On Wayward Son
214 Chuck Berry – Johnny B. Goode
215 ZZ Top – Legs
216 The Clash – London Calling
217 Peter Frampton – Show Me the Way (Live)
218 Franz Ferdinand – Take Me Out
219 David Bowie – Ziggy Stardust
220 The Beatles – Helter Skelter
221 Red Hot Chili Peppers – Dani California
222 U2 – Pride (In the Name of Love)
223 Lynyrd Skynyrd – Preacher Man
224 Metallica – Mama Said
225 The Kinks – You Really Got Me
226 Guns N’ Roses – Paradise City
227 Whitesnake – Guilty of Love
228 Queen – Play the Game
229 Echo & the Bunnymen – Bring on the Dancing Horses
230 The Police – Walking on the Moon
231 The Beatles – Let It Be
232 Ozzy Osbourne – Mr. Crowley
233 Ramones – I Wanna Be Sedated
234 Twisted Sister – We’re Not Gonna Take It
235 Led Zeppelin – Misty Mountain Hop
236 Bob Dylan – Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door
237 Red Hot Chili Peppers – By the Way
238 Kiss – Love Gun
239 Rush – Closer to the Heart
240 ZZ Top – Gimme All Your Lovin’
241 Def Leppard – Animal
242 Aerosmith – Love in an Elevator
243 The Cult – Painted on My Heart
244 Queen – I Was Born to Love You
245 Talking Heads – Psycho Killer
246 U2 – With or Without You
247 Elvis Presley – Hound Dog
248 Rammstein – Amerika
249 Ozzy Osbourne – Mama, I’m Coming Home
250 The Who – I Can’t Explain
251 The Cult – Nirvana
252 The Beach Boys – Surfin’ U.S.A.
253 The Cure – The Lovecats
254 Queen – Save Me
255 The Clash – London’s Burning
256 Boston – More Than a Feeling
257 Oasis – Stand By Me
258 The Rolling Stones – Out of Tears
259 Scorpions – Wind of Change
260 Peter Gabriel – Sledgehammer
261 The Smiths – Ask
262 The Beatles – Drive My Car
263 Aerosmith – Angel
264 AC/DC – Thunderstruck
265 Kansas – Dust in the Wind
266 Bon Jovi – In These Arms
267 Ramones – Ramona
268 Creedence Clearwater Revival – Up Around the Bend
269 Whitesnake – Is This Love
270 Kiss – Lick It Up
271 Rush – Fly By Night
272 Pink Floyd – Learning to Fly
273 Van Halen – I’ll Wait
274 Led Zeppelin – The Song Remains the Same
275 Social Distortion – Bad Luck
276 The Guess Who – No Time
277 Motörhead – Ace of Spades
278 Black Sabbath – Changes
279 The Police – Every Breath You Take
280 Alice Cooper – Poison
281 Pink Floyd – Run Like Hell
282 David Bowie – Modern Love
283 Kiss – Deuce
284 The Beatles – Strawberry Fields Forever
285 Faith No More – Easy
286 The Rolling Stones – Harlem Shuffle
287 Badfinger – No Matter What
288 Oasis – Wonderwall
289 Skid Row – 18 and Life
290 David Bowie – Blue Jean
291 Midnight Oil – The Dead Heart
292 Twisted Sister – The Price
293 Black Sabbath – Children of the Grave
294 Yes – Wonderous Stories
295 The Cure – Friday I’m in Love
296 Aerosmith – Jaded
297 Guns N’ Roses – Sympathy for the Devil
298 Uriah Heep – Easy Livin’
299 Queen – Crazy Little Thing Called Love
300 Eric Clapton – Forever Man
301 Red Hot Chili Peppers – Breaking the Girl
302 The Clash – Police & Thieves
303 Bachman-Turner Overdrive – You Ain’t Seen Nothing Yet
304 The Kinks – All Day and All of the Night
305 Stone Temple Pilots – Plush
306 Peter Gabriel – Mercy Street
307 Van Halen – Love Walks In
308 Guns N’ Roses – Civil War
309 Iggy Pop – Cry for Love
310 George Thorogood & the Destroyers – Who Do You Love?
311 Bob Dylan – Jokerman
312 Grand Funk Railroad – The Loco-Motion
313 Big Brother and the Holding Company – Piece of My Heart
314 U2 – Beautiful Day
315 Iggy Pop – The Passenger
316 Oasis – All Around the World
317 The Cult – Love
318 AC/DC – For Those About to Rock (We Salute You)
319 Tears for Fears – Sowing the Seeds of Love
320 Bon Jovi – Keep the Faith
321 Anathema – Untouchable, Part I
322 The Rolling Stones – It’s Only Rock ‘n’ Roll (But I Like It)
323 30 Seconds to Mars – Kings and Queens
324 Billy Idol – L.A. Woman
325 Kings of Leon – Use Somebody
326 Queen – Tie Your Mother Down
327 The Blues Brothers – Sweet Home Chicago
328 Pink Floyd – Coming Back to Life
329 The Cult – Sweet Soul Sister
330 Bad Company – Can’t Get Enough
331 Aerosmith – Livin’ on the Edge
332 Guns N’ Roses – Estranged
333 Dream Theater – Take Away My Pain
334 Uriah Heep – Fallen Angel
335 Led Zeppelin – Hey Hey, What Can I Do
336 The Doors – Take It as It Comes
337 The Clash – Tommy Gun (MÚSICA DA VIRADA)
338 Faith No More – We Care a Lot
339 Extreme – More Than Words
340 The Cure – Boys Don’t Cry
341 Aerosmith – Crazy
342 Grand Funk Railroad – We’re an American Band
343 Kiss – We Are One
344 The Police – Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic
345 Queen – Radio Ga Ga
346 Alice in Chains – Man in the Box
347 The Cure – Lullaby
348 The Police – Roxanne
349 UFO – Love Lost Love
350 Van Halen – Panama
351 Santana – Evil Ways
352 Heart – Barracuda
353 Pearl Jam – Last Kiss
354 Rainbow – Man on the Silver Mountain
355 Yes – Roundabout
356 Van Halen – Feel Your Love Tonight
357 Bachman-Turner Overdrive – Hey You
358 Whitesnake – The Deeper the Love
359 Mr. Big – To Be With You
360 The Kinks – Lola
361 Yes – Leave It
362 Elvis Presley – Jailhouse Rock
363 Pink Floyd – Take it Back
364 Alice Cooper – Perfect
365 U2 – I Will Follow
366 Genesis – Carpet Crawlers
367 The Beatles – Day Tripper
368 Guns N’ Roses – Live and Let Die
369 Nazareth – Love Hurts
370 Aerosmith – Hole in My Soul
371 Red Hot Chili Peppers – Scar Tissue
372 Asia – Only Time Will Tell
373 Scorpions –  Rock You Like a Hurricane
374 Rage Against the Machine – Killing in the Name
375 Dire Straits – Brothers in Arms
376 Sex Pistols – God Save the Queen
377 Thin Lizzy – Whiskey in the Jar
378 New Order – Regret
379 Rainbow – Long Live Rock ‘n’ Roll
380 Chubby Checker – Let’s Twist Again
381 Bruce Springsteen – Born in the U.S.A.
382 Neil Young – Rockin’ in the Free World
383 Bliss – I Hear You Call
384 The Doors – Break on Through (To the Other Side)
385 The Outfield – Your Love
386 Whitesnake – Looking for Love
387 New Model Army – 51st State
388 Motörhead – Cat Scratch Fever
389 Big Brother and the Holding Company – Summertime
390 The Who – Magic Bus
391 The Verve – Bitter Sweet Symphony
392 Van Halen – Don’t Tell Me (What Love Can Do)
393 Alice Cooper – I Never Cry
394 U2 – Angel of Harlem
395 The Clash – Spanish Bombs
396 Disturbed – The Sound of Silence
397 The Cult – American Horse
398 Mr. Big – Wild World
399 Van Halen – Runnin’ with the Devil
400 The Jimi Hendrix Experience – Fire
401 Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers – American Girl
402 Bill Haley and His Comets – Rock Around the Clock
403 Blue Öyster Cult – Joan Crawford
404 Three Dog Night – Joy to the World
405 Europe – The Final Countdown
406 Men at Work – Down Under
407 Foo Fighters – Learn to Fly
408 The Beatles – Rock and Roll Music
409 The Police – Spirits in the Material World
410 Van Halen – When It’s Love
411 Metallica – The Day That Never Comes
412 Santana – Guajira
413 Judas Priest – Turbo Lover
414 Midnight Oil – Forgotten Years
415 Echo & the Bunnymen – The Killing Moon
416 Alice in Chains – Would?
417 Gary Moore – Still Got the Blues (For You)
418 Dire Straits – Money for Nothing
419 Sex Pistols – Anarchy in the UK
420 Johnny Rivers – Secret Agent Man
421 The Clash – Train in Vain
422 Tommy Tutone – 867-5309/Jenny
423 The Mamas & the Papas – California Dreamin’
424 The B-52’s – Legal Tender
425 Hoodoo Gurus – Another World
426 Goo Goo Dolls – Iris
427 Bruce Springsteen – Dancing in the Dark
428 Status Quo – Down Down
429 Ghost – He Is
430 The Cult – Big Neon Glitter
431 Uriah Heep – Tears in My Eyes
432 Creedence Clearwater Revival – Bad Moon Rising
433 Peter Frampton – Do You Feel Like We Do (Live)
434 Green Day – Basket Case
435 The Cure – Mint Car
436 Deep Purple – Highway Star
437 Bon Jovi – Always
438 Tommy James and the Shondells – Crimson and Clover
439 Aerosmith – Dude (Looks Like a Lady)
440 The Monkees – I’m a Believer
441 Fleetwood Mac – Don’t Stop
442 Procol Harum – A Whiter Shade of Pale
443 Twisted Sister – I Wanna Rock
444 Suzi Quatro – 48 Crash
445 Tears for Fears – Everybody Wants to Rule the World
446 Rage Against the Machine – Guerrilla Radio
447 Foo Fighters – Times Like These
448 Alice Cooper – You And Me
449 Van Halen – Right Now
450 Whitesnake (David Coverdale) – Too Many Tears
451 Jerry Lee Lewis – Great Balls of Fire
452 Blondie – Maria
453 Santana – Oye Como Va
454 Genesis – I Can’t Dance
455 Billy Idol – Dancing With Myself
456 Oasis – Champagne Supernova
457 Blue Öyster Cult – Godzilla
458 Tears for Fears – Shout
459 Crash Test Dummies – Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm
460 Tom Petty – Free Fallin’
461 Marillion – Kayleigh
462 The Cult – Rain
463 Eric Clapton – Bad Love
464 The Bolshoi – Sunday Morning
465 Soundgarden – Black Hole Sun
466 Katrina and the Waves – Walking on Sunshine
467 Temple of the Dog – Hunger Strike
468 R.E.M. – Shiny Happy People
469 The Guess Who – These Eyes
470 The Smiths – The Boy With the Thorn in His Side
471 Supertramp – Dreamer
472 Cat Stevens – Morning Has Broken
473 Kings of Leon – Sex on Fire
474 Queensryche – Silent Lucidity
475 Van Halen – Dreams
476 Creedence Clearwater Revival – Hey Tonight
477 4 Non Blondes – What’s Up?
478 Echo & the Bunnymen – Lips Like Sugar
479 Green Day – Holiday
480 Toto – Rosanna
481 Lenny Kravitz – Again
482 The Cult – Fire Woman
483 David Bowie – The Jean Genie
484 Cream – Sunshine of Your Love
485 Yes – Soon (Single Version)
486 Paul McCartney & Wings – Live and Let Die
487 Billy Idol – Sweet Sixteen
488 Duran Duran – Save a Prayer
489 Coldplay – Viva La Vida
490 America – A Horse With No Name
491 The Killers – Runaways
492 The Animals – The House of the Rising Sun
493 Foo Fighters – Everlong
494 Bruce Springsteen – Glory Days
495 Badfinger – Day After Day
496 The Offspring – The Kids Aren’t Alright
497 Def Leppard – Hysteria
498 Peter Schilling – Major Tom (Coming Home)
499 Aerosmith – Full Circle
500 Concrete Blonde – Heal it Up

Maybe again sometime?!

Pinery Provincial Park is our #1 so far!!! Check out this gorgeous sunset 🌅 on June 23, 2017 at Lake Huron:


We arrived early to built the tent and we went for a walk on the beach. It was foggy at first, then the sky cleared up right on time for the sunset! It was an amazing time!

Hints: you gotta book at Burley Campground and close to the beach! Our campsite was 1025 and was right across the washroom 😕 it was a bit loud sometimes, but we still managed to sleep fine at 3am after a few drinks! 🍹

We woke up at noon and we went to Grand Bend Beach to chill until the rain started. This town  is really cute and I would love to come back here soon!

We came back to our campground and Eduardo used our inflatable boat 🚣🏼 to explore nature even further during the rain!

Sunday morning we packed up and we drove back to Toronto at 11am.

Beach, please! 

IMG_2397“Beach” season is upon us! 🌊 30°C all weekend on June 9, 10, and 11, 2017!

Long Point Provincial Park is perfect! We’ve voted it as the one of the best campgrounds if it wasn’t for the bugs 😀

We stayed at the old park campground 🏕 and it was right by the lake. It’s also a 2 hour drive! The only problem is that our campsite 248 is only sand and not much shade either. 🏖

It was a fun experience and the tent wasn’t full of sand as I pictured it before. So camping on the beach is manageable!

We arrived early on Friday and we took our time to build both tents ⛺️ and the campfire. 🔥

We were lucky enough to have the opportunity to see this gorgeous full moon illuminating the night sky right on top of Erie’s Lake during both nights with a clear sky! 🌌 🌙

IMG_2382IMG_2480.JPGIMG_2332IMG_2414IMG_2450We realized that our electric air pump didn’t get charged during the entire week (we plugged the wrong cable on) so we had to fill the air mattress with the manual pump. It wasn’t a big deal, but we weren’t expecting this “fun” surprise right before we went to bed.

So since I wasn’t sleepy anymore we put more firewood and we only went to bed when it started to rain. ☔️

We didn’t put out the fire and the flames were so bright that I woke up scared thinking that our tent had caught on fire!

The next morning we woke up early at 8am and we had breakfast. We went for an hour walk and I did my 10,000 steps goal of the day!

We bought more firewood and ice. We visited the beach of the new park and I am glad we’ve booked at the old park! There’s more sand on our side of the park.

We jumped into the lake after a bit of sunbathing! ☀️ Eduardo also dug a hole in the sand and we all got a bit of sunburn because it was windy and we didn’t feel it burning that much!

We came back from the beach and we ate our Canadian BBQ aka. burgers 🍔 while looking at the campfire.

We went to bed not too late because we were tired. We woke up early 8am. We ate breakfast and we took the tents down and we left at 9:30 am.

There was a lot of bugs flying around us and some even got into the car. 🚗 My mom and I ended up with a few bits all over, just Eduardo got lucky 🍀 and had zero bits. 😑

On the way back we’ve met my friend Dipika at the Lion African Safari at 11am. It was her birthday 🎉 so we celebrated with her brother and boyfriend at the safari!

We had fun and we went for lunch and dinner together! 🍾🥂🍴

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Another day, another dollar 💵 💸💰

Hey you,

This weekend we stayed at Sandbanks at Prince Edward Island County. It’s 2 hours drive from Toronto.

My favourite part of this Provincial Park is the tall dunes close to the lakeshore.

It’s fun to run down the dunes and swim away! 🏊🏼‍♀️⬅️🏃🏽‍♀️⬅️🏝

Luckily, the first time I visited Sandbanks was back in August 2016 and we had a great time hiking and swimming!

Unfortunately, the water was too cold this time because we came over too early in the year and we didn’t have a chance to get into the lake.

The dune trails are currently flooded and closed due to Lake Ontario’s high water level. 🌊🏖😵

We left late on Friday because I was working until 6pm. So we hit the road at 7:40pm and we made it to the campground at 9:45 (15 minutes before it closes again!)

We slept under the trees by the sound of the breaking waves of the lake nearby! We woke up with the sun and the birds singing.

Temperature was 8 Celsius at night and 18 during the day. We used a record number of 7 bags of firewood 🔥 for the entire weekend.

My coworkers asked me how much this costs per night, so here it goes:

The campground ⛺️ reservation and the firewood is $75 per night.

Plus one time expense of $400 bucks for all camping gear:

  • 3 pl. Camping tent (to fit bags inside beside the bed)
  • Air bed queen size
  • 2 sleeping bags
  • Cooler
  • Beach chairs and umbrella
  • Stove and gas

Extra costs:

  • Food
  • Fire starters
  • Park store (extra expenses including ice and/or lighter if you run out)

And obviously, a locker for gear storage: 😘

There’s still room for improvements 

Life is a moment. 🐚🦋🐌🌎

Our weekend at Rock Point Provincial Park was amazing!

On the way there we were greeted by 3 or 4 deers close to the roads! They were on the corner right before the park entrance. One of them jumped right in front of our car 🚗 thankfully I was able to break it on time! 🦌🦌🦌☠️ jk

We left late and we were afraid we might not arrive on time again. It turns out we arrived 15 minutes before it closed. So we were able to buy the firewood for the night 😀 This is something we should know better by now! We will improve it next weekend.

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I’m so glad that we brought way less things than last weekend, because now it’s just the 2 of us for a couple of nights. 😀

They also changed our site before hand because the #21 that I booked was too wet this weekend. We ended up with #7, also at the Lookout Campground. The site is very spacious, with 2 picnic tables and a beautiful huge tree that protects the tent. Water tap and washrooms nearby.

We built the tent right in the centre of the campsite ⛺️ and we started the campfire 🔥 right away. I was putting more firewood with my left hand too close to the flames and this happened: (I didn’t get burn, it’s just dirty.)

On Saturday morning we had breakfast with a campfire again 🙂 and this is Eduardo drying out his socks!

In the afternoon we enjoyed a nice warm 18 degrees blue sky sunny day at Lake Erie’s beach ⛱🌊 the name sadu
  we had a huge ice cream of Canadian Maple and Moses Tracks 🍦 😬 our favorite!

Sunday was a beautiful sunny morning with lots of birds singing. I built another campfire to finish the rest of the wood while I was packing up the car and we left around 11am.

I didn’t take as many pictures of this trip because I didn’t charge ANY of the batteries at home. 🏡 😑

On the drive back we saw the 3 deers again. They said bye without  crossing the road in front of us this time 😀

To do list for future trips:

  1. CHARGE ALL CAMERAS! 🎥 📷
  2. Organize camping/cooking stuff and label if possible for easy access.
  3. Pack the car the day before.
  4. Leave on time, to guarantee firewood for the night.
  5. Make sure campsite is not wet.
  6. Get a tool to put firewood in the pit.
  7. Get sticks and marshmallows 🤐

Quarter century old – what’s to be done ✅ 

Hey you,

My 25th birthday has recently passed and I celebrated it over this Victoria Day long weekend in Tobermory (yeah, again!) with Eduardo, Mahi and Asish.

I also celebrated my 7 year anniversary with Eduardo on May 20th!

The camping season this year has officially started and we had an amazing time in the best national park in Ontario: Bruce Peninsula!

We saw this beautiful sunset 🌅  during our 3.5 hour drive from Toronto.

We were driving a bit worried and unsure if we would make it on time. Turns out we arrived at the registration centre 5 minutes before it closed and we didn’t have to look for a place to stay for the night, but people still arrived in the campsite on our right side and they built their tents after we were already in bed. I guess we would have done the same thing, but we don’t like taking any chances.

Friday night was great! We built the tents ⛺️ and we had a nice fire 🔥 over wine and champagne! Even though they have an Alcohol Ban for the long weekend. 🤐

At 4am in the night, we received a visit of a wild animal 🐻 that destroyed our garbage bag with its big claws. I forgot a piece of potato 🥔 in there. 😵 We fell asleep right after that. 😴

Saturday, we enjoyed a beautiful sunny day at the Indian Head cove and the Grotto cave! Unfortunately, our guests had to drive back to Toronto right after we got back to the campground because they had family arriving today from India.

To be honest, after doing my 11K steps by trekking all day under the sun (15 Celsius! 😜) ☀️ we decided to have a lazy rainy day on Sunday. ☔️ We stayed warm in the tent. (Lowest of 5, feels like 3 at night)

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(that’s Eduardo wrapped up) 🌯🍣 more photos of the trip here.

I love campsite #206! We had a good area for both tents, both cars and 2 tables. We were cozy close to the fire 🔥 but me and Dipika got sick that night 😷 she even had a sick day off on Thursday. I kept working because I basically just had a bit of running nose and dry cough.

On Monday we packed up and we left at 10am for a breakfast of champions. 🍳🥓 This was an amazing long weekend!!!

That’s what I want to do for life: travel to new places and hike among nature in good company!

The future is in your hands. Don’t let it go to waste. You will never be as young as you are on this day. Tomorrow you will be older. “Today is the oldest you’ve ever been, and the youngest you’ll ever be.” – Eleanor Roosevelt. That’s another good reason to “seize the day or die regretting the time you lost” as Avenged Sevenfold’s song says.

The main secret of a long and good life is daily exercises and healthy food.

img_7265In a life well lived, every second that passes is a longing. (from Portuguese: “Numa vida bem vivida, cada segundo que passa é uma saudade que fica.”) It means, a life well lived is when you have a good memory of each single second. “Saudade” is the love that remains 😊

These are things that my parents always kept telling me but… you know for fact that PEOPLE ONLY HEAR WHAT THEY WANT TO HEAR and THEY CAN’T TAKE BACK WHAT THEY SAY. It means I will always remember what they kept telling me but I just didn’t want to hear at that time👂🏼 🙃 so this is what I know now as a mature young adult that I wish I knew as teen:

1- This small world is calling us! This is the best time to be alive! We can easily find affordable travel options and unlimited amazing pictures!

2- Enjoy every moment of your day, every meal, every conversation and every sunshine ☀️ because that moment is unique in your life. You will never be that age again and people come and go. So make every year a chapter of your life and fill in the blank!

3- Don’t stress out and use the 90/10 principle. Because you migh have to start over a few times. Specially if you are like most people that end up in a different town/country.

4- Don’t worry about make up 💄👁 👁 I’m so glad I got rid of my eyeliner addiction. I would simply wear it all the time as a teen and I would feel weird if I didn’t put it on.

5- Don’t worry about work out 🏋 most people have good genes and they are fine with regular daily activity until the age of 25! However, I don’t look my age anyways… I easily look 10 years younger 😐 the only difference is that now it takes me some effort to stay in shape.

6- Family is above all and we all know that friends are the family you choose! This future tattoo is in their honor and it’s a symbol of Stability and Loyalty.

Paramore: Hallelujah

Got nothing but time on our hands
This time we’re not giving up
Oh, let’s make it last forever

Asaf Avidan – Reckoning Song (One Day)

One day baby, we’ll be old
Oh baby, we’ll be old
Think of all the stories that we could have told

Avicii – The Days

These are the days we’ve been waiting for
On days like these who could ask for more?
Leave them coming ’cause we’re not done yet
These are the days we won’t regret
These are the days we will never forget!

Avicii – The Nights

Hey, once upon a younger year
When all our shadows disappeared
The animals inside came out to play
Hey, went face to face with all our fears
Learned our lessons through the tears
Made memories we knew would never fade

One day my father—he told me,
“Son, don’t let it slip away.”
He took me in his arms, I heard him say,

“When you get older
Your wild heart will live for younger days
Think of me if ever you’re afraid.”

He said, “One day you’ll leave this world behind
So live a life you will remember.”
My father told me when I was just a child
These are the nights that never die
My father told me

When thunder clouds start pouring down
Light a fire they can’t put out
Carve your name into those shining stars
He said, “Go venture far beyond these shores.
Don’t forsake this life of yours.
I’ll guide you home no matter where you are.”

5×5 – Flawless Challenge

Let’s start the countdown! My “honeymoon” vacation in Mediterranean Europe is coming up in exactly 55 days!

I’ve created this 55 day strength training challenge called: 5️⃣ by 5️⃣ !

My bestie Mahi and I challenged each other to do a set of exercises, eat healthy low carb/sugar and high fiber meals everyday –> NO CHEAT DAYS!!!

We had to do an exception for wine, vodka and whiskey. They are allowed as long we drink in moderation! Of course, it’s so obvious that I did even had to mention it.

We’ve got to do that each single day.

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The daily goal is:

First, start your day with a smoothie

2 spoons of Apple Vinegar Cider (Juice recipe here)

85 minutes (1h25) work out 🏋 

600 active calories 🏃🏽‍♀️

1940 total calories 🤸🏽‍♀️

11,250 steps 🚶🏽‍♀️

7.70 km 🚲

15 active hours (walking for at least a minute)

I really hope to see some great results before my trip 😀 

Peace & Love 

Ps- one day I hope to have a family so beautiful and happy as this:

What’s a True Brazilian-Canadian?

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Bueno… 🇧🇷 + 🇨🇦:

First, a bit of truth for both and for all: H2O! Stay hydrated, specially when the caffeine kicks in! Daily water consumption:
50kg:

  • Active: 2267ml
  • Regular: 2015ml
  • Sedentary: 1679ml

70kg:

  • Active: 3174ml
  • Regular: 2821ml
  • Sedentary: 2351ml

“Water” was the first word I’ve learned to talk! Of course, I was a baby and I would say “ah-gah” (from the Portuguese word “água”). J’aime l’eau!!! 💧💦

I drink it all day as long I have a water bottle beside me. Whenever I eat a small piece of something sweet 🍫🍩🍪 I have to take plenty of water to flush it out of my system. That’s why I’m not a big chocolate fan. It’s a good thing because I will never be a sugar addict and I don’t have to worry too much about weight gain either.

I love those detox water recipes. They are so tasty and easy to make! My favourite is with cucumber, ginger and oranges (or replace it with lime/lemon).🍋🍊🥒  That will help to keep your skin smooth too! I never had problems with dry skin until I moved to Canada. Here makes sense to use body cream because the air in São Paulo, Brazil is always so humid that I rarely had to put moisturizer on.

 

Second, stay active! I’m very active at work. My goal is to walk at least 10,000 steps/day. I also bike 5km/day as my work commute all year round. I’ve been biking under freezing rain and snow during every winter time for the past 5 years. 🚴🏻‍♀️🏃🏼‍♀️

I can say I’m a True Brazilian-Canadian because most Torontonians also don’t mind biking around the city in the winter snow and summer rain.

I know that’s not considered an ideal situation to bike, but I still do it because it’s FASTER! I don’t want to wake up earlier to put a heavy jacket on to wait for the streetcar/bus for 10 minutes standing still outside. I prefer to be in control of my time and get to work in 10 minutes by bike.

My secret: know how to dress up for the cold, layer up and you are good to go!

I almost fell once due to black ice on the roads and it was a fun adventure to get home. I only say it was “fun” because I didn’t hurt myself badly that day. The bike flew right under me, I landed on my left knee but I just ended up with a bruise.

(More pics of the cherry blossoms🌸 here)

The third reason why I’m a True Brazilian-Canadian is because I’m going camping all summer for 15 weekends in a row! ⛺️⛱⛰That’s such a traditional Canadian vacation and I’ve only camped a couple of times in the last 7 years living here. I’m going to the best national and provincial parks in Ontario. I’m taking advantage of the Free 2017 Discovery Pass, get yours now!

My first time camping in Canada was in 2015. It was close to Tobermory, ON and it was an amazing experience! I just felt bad for the ridiculous number of spiders we killed when we took our tent down. I also woke up and saw a huge skinny legged spider inside the tent, on the ceiling, right on top of our heads!

I’m this desperate to enjoy the outdoors because I know a long winter is coming. ❄️ Don’t take me wrong, I enjoy the beauty of each season. 🍁 My favourite is spring 🌸 because it brings me hope of better days☀️ plus it’s my birthday, so the year really starts in May for me 😀🍾🎉

Therefore, I want to start the year in contact with nature! My tent 🏕🏖🛶 is my natural habitat and my second home for the summer! This will be a big adventure for me and my husband! I will keep you posted!

Eduardo is from Santos, Brazil (beach town) so he went camping every year with the Scouts and he also camped with the Cadets when he moved to Canada. To be honest, I just camped a couple of times in Brazil. The best time was at my High School graduation trip to Paraty, Brazil in July 2009. Before that I only camped a few times near my house by the woods. The problem is nowadays I wouldn’t go camping in Brazil anymore. I got spoiled during these past 7 years 🇨🇦 Thanks Canada for all this beauty, security, and opportunities!!! ♥️

Mother’s day is coming up in a week and I’ve got some great news!! I’m sponsoring my lovely mom to move here 🇨🇦! Our plan is to have fun cooking a bit of our most famous Brazilian 🇧🇷 dishes in Toronto. She can’t wait to spoil her future grandkids in the next 5 years! My two brothers are coming in the next 2 years and I so happy 😊 to finally be able to bring my family close to me!! 💜💙💚💛💖

It was so hard for me to immigrate that I can’t imagine how much harder it is nowadays. My younger brother might just come to visit because he is in Law school in Brazil. My older brother is just waiting for his fiancée to graduate 👩🏼‍🎓 university next year or so. ❤️

I’m sure they will easily adapt and become True Brazilian-Canadians as well. Unfortunately, the only time I’m not a True Brazilian-Canadian is when it comes to sports and dance. I personally don’t enjoy much of these activities, so I’m not a real Canadian nor a true Brazilian in this case. I’m also cutting down my meat, coffee, beer and sugar consumption, which are also Canadian’s and Brazilian’s top faves!

It’s all good man! – Btw, it sounds like:

“It’s Saul Goodman” – from Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul

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Tiny F1b Bernedoodle

 

Someone sent me this video above at the same time I was petting the cutest dog on earth!! 🌏🐾🐶


I would love to have my house full of these puppies!! So I will start with one for now 😝 I will adopt more once I move to a farm in Niagara, Ontario.

 

Halton Hills Bernedoodles 1h14 from Toronto

  • Louise
  • 15 – 20 pounds $4000 + HST
  • Black tri collored pups

 

Willow Brooke Bernedoodles 1h47 from Toronto

  • $4000 all sizes
  • Phone: 519.580.5865

 

 

Mohr-Over Kennels 4h30 from Toronto

  • Wayne & Sheila Overton
  • 30 – 50 pounds $2500
  • Chocolate Merle’s pups
  • 15021 Highway 17
    Haley Station, Ontario
    K0J 1Y0
  • 613-432-3989
  • westerncreekranch63@live.ca

 

Bernedoodle Shtire

  • steff@doodlepups.ca
  • $2500-$3500

 

How I Met My Doodle

“Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead.” Charles Bukowski

Paulo Coelho“Don’t waste your time with explanations: people only hear what they want to hear.”

Recipe for hypo-mania: First, you have to be biologically prone to have one. Second, exhaust your mind by: walking under the sun all day, not sleeping for at least a week, drinking alcohol constantly, and non-stop talking about God, war, and love!

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I’ve got lost in the trip down to memory lane to find myself!

My name is Thaís. It’s pronounced “Ty-ees” and it’s from the ancient Greek name “Thaïs” meaning: Beloved. I’ve ALWAYS lived with passion and for passion. It’s part of my name so is my entire sense of self! I love to listen to music. From indie/alternative to progressive rock/metal. I fully relate to many of the lyrics like Pink Floyd – “Brain Damage” song: “And if the band you’re in starts playing a different tune, I’ll see you on the dark side of the moon.”

I’ve always leaned towards the depressed side because this desire for passion is not always met, so I get lost and frustrated in life. I also often found myself thinking about my past with a lingering sense of failure—the hangover of my time spent living a lie. I’ve finally noticed that fooling myself can have devastating consequences, especially when it comes to school, career, sex life and relationships in general.

I’m pretending to be something that I’m not. I’m tried to transform myself into the person everyone expects me to be. I’m fighting my way to an authentic life. I’m tired to live a lie and I have to stop to live in a way that is dishonest to myself or to other
people. Many people find it difficult to be intimate with anyone when they are not really sure who they are. When you feel like life is fake, it’s pretty hard to be close to somebody. It feels exactly like Foo Fighters – “The Pretender” song: “Keep you in the dark, you know they all pretend.”

I’ve also got a lot of anxiety so I need a very controlled and predictable environment. I always want to receive whatever I’m waiting for as quickly as possible. “Carpe Diem” sounds so good but I know I’m not intensely connected to the present moment. I’m mostly reliving the past or dreaming about the future. “Seize the day” and “live like there’s no tomorrow” makes me anxious because they are just a reminder that tomorrow exists. I have to learn to coexist in this world as if there isn’t cover and inside. Life is made up of pairs of opposites; we need movement and rest. The real challenge is to find the middle way: balance.

VictorIn Portuguese: “Quando a situação for boa, desfrute-a. Quando a situação for ruim, transforme-a. Quando asituação não puder ser transformada, transforme-se.” Viktor Frankl.

Social media helps me not to miss anything that happens in the world outside! I also want to show that I have a “perfect” lifestyle and that I’m doing something, no matter how empty and meaningless that “something” is. For someone my age, perfection is to be someone nice, sociable, who spends 3 hours per day in the gym, works eight hours, does MBA, goes clubbing, and still finds time to watch the most popular series and movies. And to me, a real life is allowing me to moments of silence and solitude in my own company, away from the world.

I recently started to ask myself: What about the ‘world’ from within? When was the last time I stopped to look after myself? Have I ever closed the door to only hear my own voice? Then I realized I know all about what’s happening around me, but nothing of what goes on inside my mind and heart. That’s how I’ve finally noticed that this hurt soul of mine deserves my full attention in order to enjoy life to it’s fullest. I’m usually very apart from others and, recently, I was able to spend a lot of time with myself. I enjoy having my space and I’ve always had an original personality. We all should dedicate some time to our only true partner for life: ourselves.

 

 

img_5952-3Now, I’m trying to be more like Kurt Cobain: “I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.” You don’t need luck when you don’t give a fuck.

It’s better to be alone than to be with someone who messes you up and doesn’t help you to fix it…

(in Portuguese: Melhor sozinha do que com quem the bagunça e não ajuda a arrumar…)

 

Ayreon – Day Seven: Hope

[Best Friend] Let me take you back
to the time when we were chasing all the girls
Two maniacs
indulging in the pleasures of this world
So much to see, so much to live for
Questions to answer, places to go
So much to be, so much to care for
Deep down inside, I think you know you are free
Come back to me!

Look ahead and see
There are still so many borders we could cross
Just you and me
making up for all the time that we have lost
[Best Friend] So much to see [Me] He may be right
[Best Friend] so much to live for [Me] I’ve got to fight
[Best Friend] Questions to answer [Me] I will pull through
[Best Friend] places to go [Me] Take me with you
[Best Friend] So much to be [Me] I will not break
[Best Friend] so much to care for [Me] I must awake
[Best Friend] Deep down inside I think you know [Me] I think I know
[Best Friend] You are free [Me] I am free
[Best Friend] Come back to me!

[Best Friend] Aaaah, aaaah – Come back to me
[Me] There’s no way out, my whole world is black!
[Best Friend] Aaaah, aaaah – Come back to me
[Me] I try to shout, something’s holding me back!”

 

My husband and I literally drove each other crazy in July 2016 during our first vacation in Europe together. I was hypo-manic for a while and my husband had a similar episode, but more severe than me.

When I come back from vacations in general, it’s if I’ve never really left home because everything else stays the same. But during this last vacation, I did some serious soul searching and it became an unique life experience for both of us. Well, it was really an eye opening trip for sure! Every summer has a story and at least, I can say, I’ve had a short time of happiness in life, rather than no time at all. I’ve realized I have to beimg_6595-3 thankful for such short times because, somehow, they manage to keep me sane and get me through life.

Believe it or not, but this episode we had in Europe is among the best things that have ever happened to us, because it has given us the challenge to heal and grow. It was the most interesting thing to see the Old World with a different perspective. We felt like everything made sense and we were so thankful for all that. To the point we thought we had a mission from God to solve all problems by carrying  the world on our backs. But it was too heavy to handle and our minds broke down in pieces. The funny part is that we are truly grateful for having had these experiences, even though they were absolutely awful in general. They have made us closer to each other and a bigger, more empathetic, stronger and beautiful couple.

“If it’s going to happen, it will happen, but why should I miss the dance? The time is short.”img_5984-3

Don’t ever question yourself “why?”, just turn the word “regret” into “I made the best possible choice I could at that time”. I’ve learned to take responsibility for my life and to follow my dreams. I was in conflict with myself and conflict is essential for evolution/growth. “When you blame others, you give up your power to change.” so never forget: “Freedom is the will to be responsible to ourselves” – Friedrich Nietzsche

I need to free myself because right now I’m a prisoner of my past! How do I get out of it? “How can you tell a passionate heart to be still and to contemplate the miracles of Creation in silence, free of tension, fear, and unanswerable questions?” (Paulo Coelho) I’m stuck but I may have just found a way and, of course, I’ll know if it really works later on in life.

IMG_5501I’m clearly having a quarter life crisis since I’ve finally realized a very obvious thing: we have one life in this planet! It doesn’t make sense to me to not pursue what we really want. I’m now working to get everything together and on track. Unfortunately, I’ve realized that I have a life that I’m not super passionate about and happy with. I’m in an environment that doesn’t support/serve/love me so I shouldn’t have to keep living like this. I’m finally taking initiative and action towards what I really want in life and moving towards what I want to achieve/cultivate/create/happen in order to feel accomplished and fulfilled in life. It’s time to start right now!

I wasn’t stable at all and I had no idea that I also had mental health issues until my co-workers and in-laws brought to my attention after our vacation in Europe. I took a few months off work to recover. I was feeling like a ghost wondering on Earth and not being totally sure of my true identity. I was a spectator of my life by just listening instead of imposing on reality. I now realize that I am an active manifestor and I’m the one who creates my own reality and it’s about time for me to take action!

I am studying my life in detail and reliving each moment that I suffered, sweated, and smiled beneath the sun. Since I moved to Canada, I’ve been taking “Netflix and chill” literally for many years now and here I only work, sleep and repeat. Noting new, nothing fun. My social life is near to zero comparing to the one I had back in Brazil during my teenage years. I feel so lonely here, but before I start, let me brag for a moment: I’ve never had spending impulses like my mother who ended up declaring bankruptcy in my childhood. After growing up with things like that, I made sure I would never be in debt in my life. I’m respected by my colleagues and customers. I have a husband that loves me with all his heart and we have a very comfortable lifestyle in a first world country. Our 5 year goal is to start raising our 3 beautiful children. “Someday, all the love you’ve given away, will find its way back to you and stay.” All I want is a man that is down for me and only me, and I think I may have found him. He has always been by my side since the day I was born. His name is Eduardo, my beloved husband. For the past 7 years my husband is the only thing that really matter in my life. I opened up my true self to him and he loves me for who I really am. I need him in my life to keep going and feel loved.IMG_5392

Lucky me to have you in my life.

I found my other half and I lost my entire self.

During our Europe vacation we both realized that we shared the exact same feeling: “I loved someone else more than myself.” That was the beginning of our hypo-mania and I was the first one to have grandiosity thoughts and become religious. This whole experience turned two Agnostics into full Roman Catholics: “We are all living in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”(Oscar Wilde)

We were both battling depression for years and he was way more depressed and more manic than me. I only noticed that he got really sick when it hit me that I couldn’t helpIMG_5350 him by myself with ineffective over the counter sleeping pills. I felt guilty… he was the reason I was still breathing and now his brilliant mind was gone because of me. On the way to the Emergency Hospital nearby, he texted his parents that I drove him crazy and it kills me just to think that I could have been responsible for that. It was when I realized how much I’ve hurt him with all my sick mind/emotional games over these 7 years together. He is just as insecure as I am. Most of the silly fights we have are just because we were afraid of losing the other. I lost my whole sense of self since his first night in the man’s ward in Prague. A week later we went back to Toronto and his family all turned their back at me because I was clubbing every night in Prague and they felt that I didn’t care enough for Eduardo.

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I definitely feel like an outsider around his family. Eduardo is my safe port whenever I’m at their house. Eduardo is afraid of confronting his parents and end up with a bad relationship with them. Just recently, I’ve realized that this is Eduardo’s problem and not mine. So I’m simply giving them space to figure this one out and in the meanwhile I will be distancing myself from his family.

I’m doing some serious self-discovery during my mental health treatment. Eduardo and I are still between depression and hypo-mania. I know I have a clear conscious that I did the best I could. Even though his parents said they will never forgive me for what I’ve done in Prague and how I’ve treated their son. They blame me for his sickness, but Eduardo is responsible for his actions. I was devastated in Prague and I needed to feel alive again, so I went clubbing and sleeping until noon. I guess they forgot that I visited Eduardo every afternoon. I still enjoyed my hard earned vacation at some point at night.

I was back at work (and boring day-to-day life) since our first day back in Toronto and I worked until my managers suggested I take a sick short-term leave after exact a month.

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I didn’t feel respected by his family and they made sure to remind me that I did’t have any saying inside their house and that I lost all their respect/credits. Fine, it’s good to know! I don’t get it how people can be this complete insensible with another human being feelings! So there’s no point of me spending even one more word/tear/energy towards this. I realized how “needy” I was when all I wanted was them to stop being so rude to me and maybe even love me. I feel just like The Offspring clearly said on Self-Esteem song: “The more you suffer, the more it shows you really care.”

“Don’t waste your time where there isn’t any space for you.” – Mathew Jacobs

I’m sorry I can’t please you. Fake sympathy is not my strong suite.

There’s nothing for me here.

I see all this as another challenge in my life to learn more about self-love. I’m determined to finally learn more about my personality and who I am.

My only hope now is to keep looking for one of those once in a lifetime moments. Yeah, and my life is full of those.

Take a ticket, take a ride. Hold on tight. Take the ride of your life. Against the current.

So far, so good. Everything is perfect.

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